U'll be in my heart
22nd March 2006 will always be remembered by me forever. A day i lose my beloved. Someone whom no one can replace. I love u grandma.
It has seemed that a part of me has left together with her. Many asked if i'm alright already. Yes i guess. but i know i am just not the same since the day of departure. Something changed in me. Good or bad, i dunno. Good i guess. I think i gonna mature up out from this.
Its been hard to getting to slp. Flashes of images of past, day of death, mandai cremation will just come. I used to love the night. but definitely not now. I hope it will be over soon. Though for the past yr, she was bedridden. but at least her presence can be felt. Now that she has joined the Lord, and my maid will be going back on the 6Apr, the house gonna be quieter. I hate that. I dun mind to be alone but this time round, its loneliness. There's just an emptiness that i really pray that God can fill it up again. I need my mennasseh.
Right from my birth, she was there. She carried me, took care of me while i'm sick. She's the one who attended all meet-the-parents sessions in school on behalf of my parents since they are dumb n mute. Taught me chinese. Pray for my exams. Made me kneel down to pray daily too while i was young. I will not be standing here as a cgl if without her. Every day without fail, she will do her quiet time, n definitely have fresh revelations from God. That's where she wrote it down in books.
More than words could say how much she has done for me, i am waiting for the day when i'll meet her again in heaven. I love u.
EnEn on 3:15 PM